Wednesday, April 30, 2003
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"You had the courage to love," (Laurana) said to him softly. "That will be your salvation and my own."
--- from "Dragons of a Lost Star" by Margaret Weis and Tracy Hickman

In Ansalon, according to the Elven calendar, today is Dead Eye, the 30th day of Spring Rain. Yesterday, Night's Eye, I finally finished book 2 of the War of Souls Trilogy, "Dragons of a Lost Star". The new epic is set after the Chaos War... quite some time after the Chaos War, when all the gods have left and magic is no more... except wild magic inherent to the world. And amidst the desertion of the gods, and the seeming rule of the Dragons, a young girl comes along performing miracles and winning battles all in the name of the One God. Who is the One God? That is the surprise that Weis and Hickman springs at the end of volume 2. And I do admit that that "surprise" made me rethink my opinions about the gods in the Dragonlance saga.

This latest epic once again demonstrates that Weis and Hickman are the masters of the saga. No one else seems able to capture the essence of the characters and of everything about Krynn other than that duo.

There are a lot of sad things that happened in the two books so far. But I know something glorious will happen in the third. And why the fate of the world lies in the hands of that kender will finally be revealed. So is the significance of the gnome....

I cried at one and only one instance in the two novels.... Maybe because it was... relevant. Marshal Medan, a commander of the Knights of Neraka, stereotyped as a follower of evil, had the courage to love... love an elf, a follower of good. Their issues weren't really so much about alignment, but more about overcoming the barriers that the Marshal seemed to have encountered with regard to his emotions. Laurana insists that her heart was buried with her husband and she is not capable of loving again. The Marshal knew that but he took the risk because she was worth it. In the end, Laurana understood. She had it right, I think. All the sadness and anger, the hatred, chaos, the sorrow, the loneliness, the doubt, all the negative things... they will not stop or disappear unless someone gets up the courage to love. The risks are innumerable, but the rewards are gratifying. And if all those things start to come back, then people must get up the courage to love some more because giving up is admitting defeat. The hurt and the risks are unavoidable. But only the one who risks is truly free. And as Mother Teresa said, it is when we love until it hurts that all the hurt goes away.

To laugh is to risk appearing like a fool.
To weep is to risk being called sentimental.
To reach out to another is to risk involvement.
To expose feelings is to risk sharing your true self.
To place ideas and dreams before a crowd is to risk being naive.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To hope is to risk despair.
To try is to risk failure.
But only the one who risks is truly free.
--- Fr. Evarist Verlinden




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Everyone's really crazy about "Smallville". Unfortunately, I haven't been able to catch any episodes. Last night though, I caught the last 3 minutes or so of one of the first episodes of season two. Lana was talking with Clark. And one of the things she said struck me. Paraphrasing.... When you love a person, you love that person no matter what. But for you to determine what the "no matter whats" really are, that person has to open up to you somehow and show you most, if not everything. Then you can decide that you love that person "no matter what". Intriguing. And true.

I have discovered though from the little amount that I know, that I can safely say.... I believe... that I do love him no matter what.

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I'd rather have bad times with you
than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm
Than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together
than to have it easy apart.
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart...."


Tuesday, April 29, 2003
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Things at work are picking up. And i mean, picking up. I don't think "Vader" remembers that the month of May only has 31 days. LOL. Well... most bosses are that way anyways. I keep telling myself this workload can't be as bad as what I had before the certification audit... but I'm mistaken. It IS worse! Aaaack!

Well, I just need to keep sane. Need to focus. Need to take advantage of all the time I have... especially for resting. Need to plan all my activities wisely.

Because of all this, all my other... issues seem to have been pushed aside. But I know they are just there waiting for me. *sigh*

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U-l-a-n reminded me of Quenya moots last time we were together. Hrmmm... Another new language to learn. This will be fun. And worthwhile.

Gotta read up and practice....

Le annon i veleth nin. :)

Oops. Sorry. That's Sindarin. Heehee.

... and that's for my happy thought. *grin*



 

The update page for Magical Melodies is finally up and running! Yippee!!! Now I just have to make sure all the individual filk pages are reformatted using the new layout. For now, when you click on the links in the drop-down menus, it will take you to the filk page, but with the old layout. Commenting has now been enabled also, so do post your reviews there! Yay! :)

Monday, April 28, 2003
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I'm trying to re-design my filks site, Magical Melodies. I've decided on a layout but it seems Blogger won't let me do updates or something. So since there's a new filk to be published, I hard-coded the index page first until the update feature using Blogger is up and running. What new filk? Well lookie here! It's called "Buses and Trains", another Harry Potter filk, this time to the tune of... well, "Buses and Trains" by Bachelor Girl. :) Post your comments here, though, please. :)



Saturday, April 26, 2003
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The Force really has a mind of its own. It guides, directs, a voice echoing in my mind. But sometimes it leaves me hopelessly lost. Most times, when I find that I cannot find the way, I listen to it, hoping to hear its voice. But those are the times that it decides to keep silent. The times when I find myself alone. Times when others cannot understand. And when the Force keeps silent, what is left? Me. Just me. Me and my undisciplined and unguided thoughts. And the world. Passing me by. It seems that invisibility cloak of mine works too well.

Have to totally get rid of the paranoia and get back on track. But I don't know how. Maybe the Force would know. And hopefully it will bring a map with it.

I need to feel better. Need my happy thought. Need to cast out all the shadows and see the light. Need to fly. Oh, help....

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We went to fly kites this afternoon. It was funnnnnn. It's very fulfilling when the kite just soars... and stays there, floating and riding the wind. Now if only Spark were as cooperative as Johann....

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Thursday, April 24, 2003
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BIG YELLOW SPEEDER
A parody of "Big Yellow Taxi" by the Counting Crows

Setting: Episode II, Coruscant Chase, just after the assassination attempt on Senator Amidala and Anakin took that speeder and flew to catch Obi-Wan....

Another filk for Joran, Counting Crows fan. :)

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Anakin:
Jumped on a speeder, pulled out of the parking lot
Off to catch my master, prove that I'm a flying hotshot.

Have to know, where did he go?
He crashed out the window, then he was gone.
I found a speeder, flew out of the parking lot.

Scanned the cityscape, he's in a terrifying free fall.
Should fly and catch him and plead to the Force I do not stall.
No, no, no....

One deep breath and off I go!
Have to track him fast before he is gone.
Caught by this speeder I pulled from the parking lot.

Hey Master, Master, would you stop your lecture, please.
I had to go and pick the right color
And speed capabilities.
Geez....

Had to choose before I go.
Had to do that before you're truly gone.
I love this speeder I pulled from the parking lot.
I love this gonzo speeder I pulled from the parking lot.
Why not?

(Instrumental)

Obi-Wan:
I thought for a while, might bid the world farewell.
Then this big yellow speeder caught me as I fell.

Anakin:
Oh, thank the Force, now off we go!
Catch the assassin before he is gone.
Using this speeder I pulled from the parking lot.
Hey, now, now.

Obi-Wan to Anakin:
Go and fly, we have to go!
Catch the assassin before he is gone.
Using this speeder you pulled from the parking lot.
Why not?
Using this speeder you pulled from the parking lot.
Hey, hey, hey.
Use this speeder you pulled from the parking lot.

Obi-Wan:
Boy, we have to catch him,
Oh, we have to catch him,
We cannot allow him to get away.
Hey, hey, hey.

Anakin:
Yes, we have to catch him.
I sure wanna catch him.
We cannot let him get away.
No, no.
I sure wanna catch him,
I sure wanna catch him,
We cannot allow him to get away.
To get away, he cannot get away.

Anakin and Obi-Wan:
We cannot let him get away.
Hey, hey, hey.

Obi-Wan:
We'll use this speeder you pulled from the parking lot.

Lalalalalala Lalalalalalalala.

Use this speeder you pulled from the parking lot....

===

ginnyskywalker
april 24, 2003
www.magicalmelodies.tk


Wednesday, April 23, 2003
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"TATOOED ON MY ARM"
A parody of "Tatooed On My Mind" by D'Sound

Original lyrics may be found here!

Setting: A Death Eater ponders his past, his future and that of his Order as the symbol of the Dark Lord grows dim in the years following his defeat.

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Death Eater:

Maybe they all forgot about him.
Death Eater future is looking grim.
I know for sure I can't forget,
Though the mark is starting to dim.

'Cause I can't get it out of my skin.
Oh I know that it's a dangerous charm.
A Dark Mark is tatooed on my arm.
And I can't get it out of my skin.

It's what he used when we were all called.
All we can do is obey.
When you feel it, must apparate by his side.
Answer him without delay.

And I can't get it out of my skin.
Oh I know that it's a dangerous charm.
A Dark Mark is tatooed on my arm.
And I can't get it out of my skin.

His followers will never be safe
If he will remain no more than a waif.
And no promises will ever soothe our minds
Unless he comes and he rescues all those of his kind.

'Cause I can't get it out of my skin.
Oh I know that it's a dangerous charm.
A Dark Mark is tatooed on my arm.
And I can't get it out of my skin.

Yes I know it's tatooed on my arm,
It's tatooed....

===

ginnyskywalker
april 23, 2003
www.magicalmelodies.tk

The 1st Annual Pickled Toad Awards for Best HP Filks

p.s. This breaks the record of "Go Get The Snitch" for my fastest written filk. This one clocked 58 minutes. ;)




Tuesday, April 22, 2003
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"YOU'RE IMMORTAL (An Ode to Fawkes)"
A parody of the song "My Immortal" by Evanescence
From the album "Fallen" and the "Daredevil" OST

For Joran. It's still creepy.... :)

Setting: Dumbledore, depressed over seeing Fawkes looking so dreadful a few days before Burning Day, ponders on their friendship, his mortality, and his phoenix's virtual immortality....

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Dumbledore:

I know you'll always be here
Yet I am burdened with this fear
That I will lose my pet
And I don't want to just yet
I know that you'll always be here
And you won't leave me alone

You are my loyal friend
You're with me to the end
We have a friendship time will not erase

When you cry
You heal with your magical tears
When you sing
You make all despair disappear
And you've been my friend through all of these years
When I'm gone you'll still be here.

When your Burning Day draws near
Your looks surely don't endear
You shed your lovely feathers, you look queer.
Burst into flames
To a pile of ashes
But you remain the same
Phoenix as you are reborn

You are my loyal friend
You're with me to the end
We have a friendship time will not erase

When you cry
You heal with your magical tears
When you sing
You make all despair disappear
And you've been my friend through all of these years
When I'm gone you'll still be here.

I know that you'll still be alive when I'm gone
But while I'm still living
You will never be alone.

When you cry
You heal with your magical tears
When you sing
You make all despair disappear
And you've been my friend through all of these years
When I'm gone you'll still be here.

===

ginnyskywalker
april 22, 2003
http://www.magicalmelodies.tk



Sunday, April 20, 2003
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GO GET THE SNITCH (THE SEEKER'S SONG)
A parody of "Asereje (The Ketchup Song)" by Las Ketchup

Original lyrics may be found here!

Author's Notes / Thank Yous:

For the record, The Ketchup Song still isn't in my personal top 1000 favorite songs. Teehee. :) I guess this was filked because of sheer determination, Oneal's plot suggestion (do quidditch! high speed plot for a high speed filk!) and my filk writing kit. This was also riding my filking wave of 4 songs for this long weekend. :)

The version of The Ketchup Song used for this filk is the Spanish-English version (lyrics at the link above) because it is easier to work with than the purely Spanish one. Please make allowances for the end result (it's a tongue twister!) as the original song is so very very difficult to filk. Oh, and please... don't make me sing this!!! Writing it is enough strain on my sanity. :)

I apologize to those who dislike the song (sorry, Joran. heehee). You can imagine how I felt when I was filking it. But the challenge was issued, I accepted, and it had to be done. :)

One little fact: this takes my personal record for the fastest written filk. 3.5 hours, written while looking out for my sister, looking out for my dad, strategizing, and texting. :)

I thank the Lord for the rhyming dictionary. :) Oh, and the word "our" is a two-syllable word. :)

U-l-a-n, Lau, Krys, Captain Pao, here you go! Heehee. Enjoy (or be bothered! LOL!)

For Oneal. :)

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Get those brooms ready to fly,
Our opponents will fry.
Off we all go to play Quidditch.
Feel the magic in the air,
The wind blowing through your hair,
Watched by every wizard and witch.

Refrain:
When the ref throws up the quaffle,
Start to focus on the battle,
Be alert and see you look out for the bludger.
And when the snitch flies by so fast,
Chase it and don't look so aghast,
Catch it and you will end the game, you must fly stronger!
Dodge the beaters, you can catch it, just go faster...

Chorus:
Go get the snitch!
No, don't flinch,
You have to beat the opposing team's fast seeker
Make sure you do not go and fly yourself in the ditch.
(Repeat chorus 2x)

Seekers should be brave and daring.
Oh, the danger's escalating
Often they have to be rescued.
They've been known to take some cursing,
in the desert, apparating,
wand'ring around for years with no clue.

(Repeat Refrain)
(Repeat Chorus 3x)

A nanana...

(Repeat Chorus 9x)

===

ginnyskywalker
april 20, 2003


Saturday, April 19, 2003
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BRING ME TO LIFE
A parody of "Bring Me To Life" by Evanescence
from the album "Fallen" and the "Daredevil" OST

Original lyrics may be found here!

Spoiler alerts for: "Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone" and "Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire"

Setting: Voldemort is tired of being formless and virtually helpless and orders his most trusted servant to call on old magic to bring him back to his old form....

Author's Note: Voldemort does all the singing, Pettigrew does all the rapping. (Pettigrew's parts are enclosed in [ ]. )

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I cannot live on like a ghost roaming the land.
Defeated, cannot use my wand,
Not able to cast spells.
Without a form,
My spirit seeking bodies warm,
Until they die then I leave and search for more.

Chorus:
[You will live!]
Take my father's bone.
[You will revive!]
Flesh, my servant's own.
[Rise up!]
Call my name, summon me from the dark.
[You will live!]
Get me Potter's blood
[You will revive!]
Then I will have a bod.
[Rise up!]
I'll rise from this nothing I've become.

Tried to get the Sorcerer's Stone
But Potter stopped me.
Help me and I will make you see.
I'll change your life.

Chorus:
[You will live!]
Take my father's bone.
[You will revive!]
Flesh, my servant's own.
[Rise up!]
Call my name, summon me from the dark.
[You will live!]
Get me Potter's blood
[You will revive!]
Then I will have a bod.
[Rise up!]
I'll rise from this nothing I've become.
Bring me to life.
[You will rise up again! The Dark Mark will reign!]
Bring me to life.

Bridge:
Helpless for years without a form, without my wand.
And soon all the world will see me rise from the dead!

[Oh my lord, I cannot take this awful pain
I've lost my hand but what is it that I will gain?]
You are losing your faith in me, it seems,
Here's a silver hand, now, am I redeemed?
[Thank you my lord, my loyalty, even my soul,
I give them to you,
I give all that and more.]
I am alive!.

Chorus:
[You will live!]
Take my father's bone.
[You will revive!]
Flesh, my servant's own.
[Rise up!]
Call my name, summon me from the dark.
[You will live!]
Get me Potter's blood
[You will revive!]
Then I will have a bod.
[Rise up!]
I'll rise from this nothing I've become.
Bring me to life.
[You will rise up again! The Dark Mark will reign!]
Bring me to life.

===

ginnyskywalker
april 19, 2003


Friday, April 18, 2003
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Chewbacca!

Weird how writing this filk seems to have a different effect on me. I can't get it out of my head!!!! Oh, well....

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CHEWBACCA
A parody of the song "Chihuahua" by DJ Bobo

Original lyrics can be found here!

Filker's Note: This filk is dedicated especially to the Stormballs. I'm now loony and disturbed... all because of you guys. ;) At least it broke the Filker's Block....

Spoiler alert for: "Star Wars Episode IV - A New Hope"

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Chewbacca! (7X)

Oh, Chewbacca!!

He towers sev'ral feet
and his fur shines bright
He is loyal and he is dependable in a fight
The Wookiee!
He is everyone's good buddy.
Yeah, he's cool, alright!

When you play
Oh, you have to let him win
Or pray,
'Cause he will break your arm or chin!
It's true!
Don't even wait to find out
or you will be screaming out loud.

Chewbacca roars,
Chewbacca fights,
Scaring everybody with his height.
He is huge!
To fight him ain't so easy.
Chewbacca!

He is big and strong! (Chewbacca!)
Let's all sing his song! (Chewbacca!)
Everybody dance! (Chewbacca!)
Oh, Chewbacca!
Who is Han's Best Friend? (Chewbacca!)
Loyal to the end. (Chewbacca!)
The Falcon's first mate. (Chewbacca!)
Oh, Chewbacca!

He's flying a cool ship
Ferrying some escapees.
There's that old Jedi,
Two droids and the young guy.
So, where to go?
They head for Alderaan
According to the old man's main plan.

He's brash
But when the Falcon goes crazy,
Like a flash,
He can fix it fine and dandy.
And he
supports the Rebel Fleet,
With Han he's done some glorious feats!

Chewbacca roars,
Chewbacca fights,
Scaring everybody with his height.
He is huge!
To fight him ain't so easy.
Chewbacca!

He is big and strong! (Chewbacca!)
Let's all sing his song! (Chewbacca!)
Everybody dance! (Chewbacca!)
Oh, Chewbacca!
Who is Han's Best Friend? (Chewbacca!)
Loyal to the end. (Chewbacca!)
The Falcon's first mate. (Chewbacca!)
Oh, Chewbacca!
Chewbacca!

Chewbacca! (7x)

Oh, Chewbacca!

He is big and strong! (Chewbacca!)
Let's all sing his song! (Chewbacca!)
Everybody dance! (Chewbacca!)
Oh, Chewbacca!
Who is Han's Best Friend? (Chewbacca!)
Loyal to the end. (Chewbacca!)
The Falcon's first mate. (Chewbacca!)
Oh, Chewbacca!

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ginnyskywalker
april 18, 2003


Wednesday, April 16, 2003
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Stop analyzing too much, Gin. Just BE.

It's looking like a week of one-liners, so that's two for today. :)


 

The fan fiction thread at SWP's Fanforce forum is getting funnier but more and more disturbing....





Monday, April 14, 2003
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I miss Artoo.



Sunday, April 13, 2003
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After several months, I have finally finished reading "The Mists of Avalon". It was 1000+ pages of pure drama, magic, intrigue. It is a retelling of the beloved Arthurian legend, but in the point of view of the women of Avalon, specifically Morgaine, half-sister to Arthur and the woman who will be his doom. Ms. Bradley's style of writing is admirable - very descriptive, and able to hold one's attention... yes, even through all 1000+ pages.

One of the most intriguing aspects of the epic is the clash of Christianity and the people of Avalon's worship of the Mother Goddess, Ceridwen. The Druids and Priestesses and those reared in Avalon respect the other religions, and believe that all gods are One. But in the time of Arthur, Christianity is spreading through Britain, and along with it, the customs and beliefs of the priests, a narrow thinking characterized by the desire to cast out other religions and prosecute their worshippers. It was a time of intolerance which led to the demise of Camelot, as well as of Avalon.

I liked the book because it gave me the other side of the story of Arthur, as well as glimpses into the magic behind Excalibur and the Lady who affected Arthur's reign. This sure ranks as one of my favorite books of all time.

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A lot of things caught my attention while browsing U-l-a-n's new and fabulous book, "Abarat" by Clive Barker, yesterday. The art, the rhymes, the fascinating characters... and this quote at the very first chapter:

Three is the number of those who do Holy Work.
Two is the number of those who do lover's work.
One is the number of those who do Perfect Evil.
Or Perfect Good.



Saturday, April 12, 2003
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Intriguing quote from a Neil Gaiman work from this article about New Worlds at the Manila Times:

Talking about worlds, he says in "Titania", that they are "...an escape, an alternative. It is of little importance whether they are real or not. What is, is that they provide a diversion from the mundane, a vision of hope. Do you understand?"

I understand that very very well. :)


 

Okaaay. More of those online tests. I took several out of boredom and to keep myself from falling asleep right here. Teehee. This time it's The Love Personality Test.

Ginny, your love personality type is ENFJ. [Ginny: What in the world is that?!?!?!]

Being an ENFJ means that when it's time for someone to take charge, you'll usually step up to the plate. Your type possesses a balance of sensitivity and command that can make you an inspiring leader. You aren't one who's easily ruffled. In fact, you can maintain much more grace and calm than most people when faced with a crisis. In all kinds of tough situations, people can typically count on you to keep the peace. In relationships, you're known for giving your all and for needing others to do the same. Your kind is usually good about being careful with other people's feelings, treating people with gentility and respect. On the whole, ENFJs like you can have an exceptional ability to be in tune with other people's emotions and needs.

Hrmmmmmm....

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Somebody save me
Let your warm hands break right through me
Somebody save me
I don't care how you do it
Just stay, stay
Come on
I've been waiting for you
--- "Save Me" by Remy Zero (OST - Smallville)



Friday, April 11, 2003
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Harry Potter and The Order of the Phoenix Book Summary

Over at The Leaky Cauldron, a reader sent in a copy of Scholastic's summer catalog for the year. Naturally, it includes Order of the Phoenix, and a summary of what will happen during Harry's 5th year. There are major spoilers here, so I have taken the liberty to hide the text for those who do not like spoilers. (Highlight the area in between the >> << to read the summary).

>> "I say to you all, once again - in the light of Lord Voldemort's return, we are only as strong as we are united, as weak as we are divided. Lord Voldemort's gift for spreading discord and enmity is very great. We can fight it only by showing an equally strong bond of friendship and trust."

So spoke Albus Dumbledore at the end of Harry Potter's fourth year at Hogwarts. But as Harry enters his fifth year at wizard school, it seems those bonds have never been more sorely tested. Lord Voldemort's rise has opened a rift in the wizarding world between those who believe the truth about his return, and those who prefer to believe it's all madness and lies - just more trouble from Harry Potter.

Add this to a host of other worries for Harry...
* A Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher with a personality like poisoned honey
* A venomous, disgruntled house-elf
* Ron as keeper of the Gryffindor Quidditch team
* And of course, what every student dreads: end-of-term Ordinary Wizarding Level exams

...and you'd know what Harry faces during the day. But at night it's even worse, because then he dreams of a single door in a silent corridor. And this door is somehow more terrifying than every other nightmare combined.

In the richest installment yet of J.K. Rowling's seven-part story, Harry Potter confronts the unreliability of the very government of the magical world, and the impotence of the authorities at Hogwarts.

Despite this (or perhaps because of it) Harry finds depth and strength in his friends, beyond what even he knew; boundless loyalty, and unbearable sacrifice.

Though thick runs the plot (as well as the spine), readers will race through these pages, and leave Hogwarts, like Harry, wishing only for the next train back. <<

Intriguing, isn't it? Now I really am excited. :)



Thursday, April 10, 2003
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R2D2: Astromech Droid, Neighborhood Dog Terrorist

I have been given the privilege of droid-sitting Artoo for a while longer (yippee!!!), but it seems the little droid has become... the neighborhood dog terrorist. When my neighbor's dog, Stanley, went to visit my dog Yoda last night, the poor thing went running and hiding under the car just as Artoo played the Cantina song. And he wouldn't come out. When we were finally able to coax him out, he was visibly shaking, and wouldn't go near Artoo. And the other dog, Leika, seems to have fallen victim to him as well. Dog repellent, chick magnet. Wow.

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Yoda: Stop bugging me. Go away!



Tuesday, April 08, 2003
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The SWP Anniversary Party was a blast, as usual. I realized that all one really has to do is leave the members in one room with some food and a camera, and they can get a party going without planning. Hehehe. I love that everyone is becoming friends and enjoys each other's company.

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I still cannot believe Oneal entrusted Artoo to me last weekend, and now I have him here at home to play with. Interactive Artoo, that is. :) I think I'm slowly losing my voice from commanding the little droid. Heheheh. But he's such fun.,,, everyone's been having fun with him... except my little doggie. She seems to be wary of Artoo and tends to stay on top of the chair when Artoo is moving around. Wonder what it is with Artoo and animals. Teehee. :) I've never tried to command him before, but he followed me the first time I did. I can get him to do several things now... except maybe to keep quiet. Heheheheh. Marky has got him playing "Spin the Droid", and Niccah has him dancing to the Cantina Song. Me? He just follows me around and loves playing the Force theme for me. :) I love him. Hrmmm... If Oneal doesn't get him in a few days, I will be so enamoured, he will be my own... my preciousssssss.... Bwahahahahaha!!!

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This is an actual conversation between me and Artoo.

"Hey, Artoo!"
*beep beep bleeep*
"Do you remember?"
*beep beep bleep*
"The Stormballs."
*beep bleep frazzle beep bleep bleep* (shakes head).
"Aha! Feigning ignorance, are we. Your Master taught you well. Hahahaha!"
*beep beep bleep beep!"

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Excerpts from GiNnY's Diary

... I had this sudden... flashback, if you will. All the things that I've said, the words that I wrote, all my actions... they all started coming back... I started seeing them... through his eyes. And then I realized that though I have been careful in the presence of others, I may have been transparent to him....

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How can you see into my eyes like open doors?
Leading you down into my core where I've become so numb.
Without a soul, my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home...

Wake me up inside, wake me up inside
Call my name and save me from the dark.
Bid my blood to run, before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I've become.

Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life.

...
...

Frozen inside without your touch, without your love
Darling, only you are the life among the dead....

--- "Bring Me To Life" by Evanescence


Friday, April 04, 2003
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Apparently, there is more to that Inkblot Test result in my mailbox:

People who have unconscious minds driven by love tend to be nurturing types who are good at taking care of those around them. They may also shy away from spending too much time alone.

Hrmmmmm.....




 

Emode often sends me some personality tests. Sometimes I take them, sometimes I don't. The one I received today was very very intriguing. So although it consisted of 50+ questions, I decided to just go on and take it. It is an Inkblot Test. Here are my results:

Ginny, your unconscious mind is driven most by Love.

Everyone has a desire to love. But your desire is rooted very deeply in your unconscious and affects many of the decisions you make in life — whether you are aware of it or not.

You have an energy about you that inspires people to experience their true feelings of love and act kindly towards others. In this way, you and your drive for loving relationships start a chain reaction of positive experiences.

The reason you are driven by love, may be because your unconscious is trying to avoid the opposite of love — hate. You, more than others, may be afraid of experiencing severe discord with others. That may, in turn, heavily influence your choices about relationships and the way you communicate your ideas, wants, and desires to others.

With such a strong orientation towards loving others, your relationships hold a very special place in your life. Your capacity to love may be greater than those around you, and therefore you may have more to give in relationships than your romantic partner does. Remember that this is a gift you have and one most others don't possess.

Though your unconscious mind is driven most strongly by Love, there is much more to who you are at your core.

Intriguing. Very intriguing. Teehee. But somehow... accurate. :)

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I don't wanna run away
But I can't take it, I don't understand.
If I'm not made for you,
then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay
in your life?
--- "If I'm Not The One" by Daniel Bedingfield



Wednesday, April 02, 2003
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The boys seem to have this Dune thing going on. But since I have been... living in fear for some time, this seems appropriate....

I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye to see it's path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.
-- The Bene Gesserit Litany of Fear (Dune by Frank Herbert)

Right. I was not sorted into Gryffindor by every single sorting hat program if I didn't have even a little courage. Forth Eorlingas!

(boy, judging from this entry, I'm really confuddled now! hahaha!)